Lately, I’ve been receiving a lot of emails and messages from people that want to thank me for helping them through an eating disorder or body dysmorphia. I can’t even express to you how much that makes me fill up with gratitude, joy and relief. Since I was about 14 years old until I was about 25, I suffered from many forms of eating disorders and it wasn’t until the last two or three years that I have accepted my body for all the amazing things it is and can be.
It’s hard for me to put into words what it was like for me growing up. For one thing, having your spine completely fused from top to bottom creates a certain mindfulness that not a lot of people can identify with. At the tender age of 13, my spine was curved and twisted and ultimately ended up being fused just before my 14th birthday. Because my scoliosis curve was so dangerously severe (80 degrees using the Cobb method), they could not, at that time, correct it to a perfectly straight back (nor do they most of the time anyway). That being said, I was left with some pretty heavy things to deal with. I would not reach the height at which I should have grown to (most likely around 5’10″ or more, I am currently 5’5″), I would never be able to flex at the spine again (no stretching, leaning back, twisting to the side or bending side to side as much as most people can) and I would be left with a slightly bent over appearance. You can kind of get the idea in the picture set below…especially the middle one.
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It’s Finally Summertime!
In the summer, one of the biggest nutrition switches I make (besides gorging on ridiculously large bowls of fruit) is eating more smoothies. I am not one of those people who have them year round. I am very particular about how I like my smoothie, and the way I like it is ice cold with loads of ice cubes and frozen fruit. Of course, I usually have a shake every day, year round…but to me a smoothie involves a lot more ingredients than a shake. Shakes are for siphoning nutrients quickly into your body after a workout, whereas smoothies are more of a meal replacement, at least when I make them anyway.
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Many of you have been reading this blog since way back in 2009 when I first started. Those were my humble beginnings, and just like any good character in a deeply engrossing novel, I have changed dramatically since then. Life tosses you many things as you age…marriage, kids, homeownership, dogs, cats, lives, deaths, friends, family and you must embrace all those things with courage, grace, and spirit. The knowledge that you gain (GAINZ!) from embracing change is a powerful tool. How can you possibly grow as a person without change? I’ve touched on the subject before, as it seems many people are afraid of change. Be it in the form of small things like dyeing your hair or changing your wardrobe to moving across the country or getting married, no matter the size of the change, people fear it.
When this blog started in 2009, I was 26 years old. I had one small child and one little dog. I lived in a tiny rented townhouse and I was on maternity leave from my office admin/inside sales job at a hardwood supply warehouse. I did not do the fitness, unless you count the walking I did with my tiny baby. I still watched daytime TV and thought squats were bad for your knees. I ate a “healthy” diet that mostly consisted of home cooking but not enough of it. I like to think I wasn’t starving myself, but I kinda was.
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I see a lot of bullshit on the internet, as I’m sure we all do. A lot of misinformation, poorly “researched” articles and just plain old downright lies. In this “Age of Information” it can be just as easy to be informed as it is to be misinformed.
So let’s talk about abs for a minute. Look at the photo above and tell me what you see. Leanness, check. Abs, check. Happiness? Nope. The photo above is from early 2013. I was eating a strict low carb paleo diet, working out twice a day and eating below 1600 calories. I was fatigued in my WODs in the afternoon from doing fasted cardio and ab work in the morning, I had ZERO strength gains and I was miserable and hangry, but look at my SEXY ABS!
Was I satisfied with my abs at the time? Nope.
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So remember that awesome KitchenAid dishwasher I got? Here let me refresh your memory…
Ooooooo shiny! But in all seriousness, let’s talk about this thing shall we? The reason I got handed a dishwasher worth almost 2K is so that I can tell you all my honest to goodness opinion of it. Every time I tell people that KitchenAid gave me a dishwasher, I get quizzical looks and the inevitable question: “WHY?!”. Because, I’m awesome?
But no really, it’s because I have a keen eye and an honest voice. I don’t pretend to like things that I don’t like and I tell it like it is. So I’ve told you all about how much I love it, but what is wrong with it right?! SOmething is always wrong with the things we spend money on. I will tell you this thing is as quiet as they advertise (we have a decibel reader…NERDS!) and washes and dries like no other dishwasher I’ve owned, as long as you put the dishes where you are supposed to…like maybe, not on top of one another.
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